God´s Forward March


Perhaps it had no effect on us after all,
Their placid eyes & slow responses, were surely signs
Of an inferior species, for example.
On the day a nearby nested finch landed atop the Bible in my tent,
I knew it was true that we had been sent for a reason.
I remember our Padre and his blessing:
It was their superstition more than anything
Else, that had to be turned around, he said.
No belief should constrain God´s forward march, we were told,
Likening us to pilgrims on a holy journey.

Our bearing was solid enough, our flags held high,
Our armor glistening in the moonlight
As we rode over dense hills with the ocean at one side,
And those demonically magnificent cities on the other.
They would never believe us, so we tempered down the tale:
Still, gold adorned walls, the streets were clean,
Water flowed from terraced hills,
& there were more people than the grandest of cities home.
Our hearts quickened when we reflected
At our fortune.

My men were strong and hardy,
The swords sharp, the passions, awakened
By the indecent nakedness they neither hid nor felt shame of.
We were presented with everything – and we took that, and more, each day.
At one point a message was delivered: we understood nothing
Of the Devil´s illegible abominations so we crumpled the paper,
Burned all the books their priests held (and later hid)
& consigned to the purifying fires
The messengers, too.
Glory was ours (and God´s we cried)!

In the end their King,
Festooned with what seemed a million feathers from
Brightly colored birds & gold plates around his chest & lap,
Finer than anything we had ever beheld
His bearing regal & heroic,
Was the last one to appear & we took him, too,
Convincing them by sword that it was best we spoke alone.
After he was garrotted I pointed out his shit
To his pathetically inconsolable followers (they all shit when choked),
Saying now their ways were like his mess,
To be discarded, exchanged for civilization.

They had hoarded their wealth for too long.

In the end, it took many days, but,
Comforted by the rough embraces of
Dozens of girls my men had been yearning for
(&, giving not a few to our priests)
Eventually their red blood covered the plaza walls and watered the flowers
As we chipped all the gold so wastefully adorning the walls,
To gift to our great and holy sovereign King, Vicar of Christ
& now Lord over these heathen regions.

It was a belief among the men that our fires that lit up the nights,
Would be taken to the heavens and sent back
To their cities, where our
Noble and gentle women were at present cooking the meats
& the smells would linger until we arrived.
(Of course, the ungodly cries of the children we killed
& the remains of their debauched godlessness would reach home
Too, they feared, in the forms of disease and madness)
Primed with Holy hope we continued though,
Covering a continent, aiming high
With ambition, letting God speak through our swords.





The windows were cracked open all night,
The dark wind
Changed the pressure in the room,
And the door tapping itself
Open and closed,
Over and over, every few seconds,
Were the only sounds I could bear.
I stayed alone in my room,
Lying sleeplessly on the bed,
Solo (it means “alone” in Latin)
In so many ways.

The grayness of the next afternoon was quiet,
The town´s doors shut tight,
No one wanted to relive the nightmares of the days before.
Until the next time.

Her beating heart had crashed from the
The crucifixion by torment,
The rule of many nights here.
Her son still hung there hours after they´d all left,
No one to help take his broken body down,
No one to help at all.
She died, too, soon after.
But there would be many more before the year passed.

The trees bore their fruit lightly that summer,
Swaying at sunset,
Human wind chimes of the American South.
By happenstance some looked out the windows,
Children who´d stayed home by force of will
Or who were too young to join.
I couldn´t bear any of it, so I pretended to be sick,
Though sick I was.

The town´s leaders banned the too young
Encouraging the rest to witness,
Since they believed justice should be seen publicly
Instead of simply advocated privately.
And justice had a White name out here.

We never said much – a few helped with the cuttings, though,
Some stole shoes, a few took fingers
Or other parts to proudly tame
The maids who visited and cleaned up,
Serving tea after Church on Sundays.

It was always “recommended” that the adults watch.
Few needed the invitation, though.
Popcorn and candy was often sold and distributed.
Laughter drowned out the screams sometimes.
The screams drowning out the pity.
The more they squealed, the more delight
Broke through those toothless grins.
The candy store owner made a mint those days.
The saloons were hoppin´ at night.

When they´d all get home
I dutifully came down and pretended to listen,
But I heard nevertheless
Seeing monsters in my living room all night.
When the table was set tidy,
Grace was always said.



He judged them too harshly, I thought,
Calling us all “monophobic twits”,
Something about a manic fear of being alone.
Yet, at the same time, he felt free to opt in to our parties,
Laughing like a madman, joking about
Erections, orgasms, and awakening, likening them to the
Same thing. We´d usually laugh and slide away,
A few stayed close, egging him on, though,
Feeling something else in his madness.
And he was always free to opt out as well;
Suffering the idiot games we played
With alcohol or sex,
Muttering after too many beers that we “just didn´t get it”,
Then walking away, back to that little hovel he called
His retreat cave.

We were students, after all, celebrating the end of
Developmental celibacy,
So we didn’t care too much either way.
I volunteered to walk him home one night,
And in the dark he slipped and slurped his way
On the path, pointing out constellations and calling up
Memories of some ex-wife, tons of lovers,
And a generally naked teacher
Who flew, he claimed.

I laughed at him, just like the rest,
But once inside, when he showed me his eyes,
I saw such clarity, such sobriety, I shook involuntarily
For so long, he placed me on his bed, muttering some
Nonsense from the old country.

Leaving to pee, I thought, I saw a manuscript on his bed and,
Starting to read, I fell into such a state,
When I looked up it was morning, the sun cracking its way
Through the open door way where I caught a glimpse
Of him just sitting there, on the ground with his hands on his knees
Looking at the horizon where the light erupted
And smiling like the idiot we all thought he was.

At least, until I had read that book.

I didn´t remember a word as I said goodbye and
Began the walk home.
Not a word.
But between the pages
Was confirmation of something big,
Though now, so many years later, I can´t touch it.

I believe in flying teachers, though.

The Road Around Troy: The Tally of the Truly Punished


Consider Hector,
How noble, powerful,
Secure in honor, beloved in the hearts of men,
Both Greek and Turk,
But who still dies before the end,
His body a lifeless rag to wipe
The road around Troy.

In the abstract, it is easily understood:
Attitudes do not change
About war;
To this day insouciance pervades
As the new calls for punishing
The aggressor
Ignore the tally of the truly punished.

The privilege of those who will
Clean the roads with the blood of others
Is such that they will claim it forever,
Down through ages, this remains sacrosanct.
Their delight secure, they will
Create conditions,
A woman´s beauty, a nerve gas release, some weapon
Which does not exist, yet may still
Be the cause of “mass destruction”,
Necessary to “bring us all together on this”.

Being upset at the little bodies that
Usually litter the sides of roads,
So many within the arms of their mothers,
Should be cause for reflection now,
Many thousands of years later.
It is a tentative gamble, though,
If it wasn´t enough to stop them



The old Tiffany lamp in the corridor
Had heard many a dangerous conversation,
This was the last straw.
(All “intelligence” is a lie on someone
& a trick of mixed metaphors)
& the choices this time around
Led to new, almost inevitable ideas.

The package we put in the morning consulate pouch.

The mendaciousness alarmed even the planners
Across the boulevard but still,
One does what is necessary; it is simpler that way.
Why now, why begin this when we do not know where it will stop?
No one answered, we follow orders after all.

In the bigger picture,
Expelling a few lowlies like myself & associates
Is a small price to pay.
Of course, the warmer waters near the villa would soothe
Any poisoning, mine, or otherwise.



They raised their banners at the ravine´s edge
Posing like children on a school field trip.
To get there, they forded rivers, played with their swords,
Pretended that whole kingdoms were at stake.
It could be argued that the Truth matched.
Some intelligence agency watched from afar,
Manipulating this tender piece of humanity,
Staging the opera before the fat lady sang
And the curtain dropped on them all.

The Guru of All Appearances


In what way of seeing the world
Are a child´s cries dispensable?
In what non-woke outmoded manner of reflection
Is their anguish not worthy of attention?

With a finger flip I move the dial of the car radio
To a station of oldies, and drift along the road as the player
Strips me of the present, where I
Just might have to confront such problems.

Instead, I shuffle down a past that
Would be extinguished in a second should I not call
It up constantly, feverish in my own tormented needs
To forget.

I click another station, my mouth dry,
The guru of all experiences, hard teacher at the best of times,
Living with the liberty of granting forgetfulness,
Now summoned with increasing urgency.


Broken Totems, Sky-clad Dreams

Wan, narrow-ranged forgiveness we expected to
Fall on us when we wept deeply,

Shattering the night sky with our regrets, our turgid explanations,
Then filled with utter amazement at the following

We´d drawn; the absolution, those awful cries for help. The eyes,
It was the eyes that carried the sacred in their harrowing yearning.

All they had left now were
Fragments of remembrances, broken totems of the power

The people once had to stand upon, now tossed, lying
Flat, naked among the last hunting fields,

Sky-clad dreams inspiring essays to be written
Among the bare rocks.



It was the wonder of it all that made it harder to win:
That roaring rushing sound when
The waters fell, the sliding
Ebbs and flows of the shallow pool
At the bottom,
And the gloaming curls of the mini-waves hitting the crass and broken
Black rocks along the sides.

There are spectacles of wonder
And there are wonderful and sundry spectacles we
Turn our eyes from
As the muted horrors pile upon us daily,
Brought to us by cozy furniture guests,
An outfit designed for discomfort,
Taking advantage of our bedazzled eyes.



In that odd, timber-framed house
At the end of the long drive
A barely hospitable glance
From a darkened window
Hinted at what came later.

If not for sheer happenstance
The weather would have turned us away
But those black leaves and reddish skies
Cured any chance of despair.
Someone was home.

The winds howled mercilessly
In a scarecrow cry that shook the porch
And bent the makeshift eaves.
We entered cautiously as no one knew
What was really expected.

It was not an unfortunate thing,
We had, after all, journeyed this far.
Only the opportunity to meet someone,
Even, one of them,
Was too great to pass up.

We sat tightly huddled
In the Earthlike semblance of
A rocking chair and an old couch.
We listened, understanding little.
But there we were, listening, wondering,
Looking into its large eyes,
Planning yet another conquest.